I asked God for everything to enjoy life, He gave me Life to enjoy everything!

Today was a very sober day… I seem to have pushed my neck into a funny position, so its kind of stiff. Cant turn sideways and hurts a bit. And I got to know that a family friend’s been in a heart attack…they had to give him shock for about 17 times to revive his heartbeat…. Brings back memories when appa was in an attack…they had to shock him once. It was a miracle that he survived. It’s this thing about hospitals…when you are there, you are so scared, you feel so helpless…you pray to god, you believe every word the nurse says, and you worship the doctor who saved you… and when the critical stage is passed by, you feel so relieved, you want to kiss that doctor, for a moment want to make your kid study medicine or build a hospital yourself or at least wish that you were doctor. I wonder how the doctors feel when they save a life...does it feel like god, to bring a person back to life? And does it feel like crap when they lose a patient? Or do they get so used to it that they don’t get emotional? I always feel a tug in my heart when I go to the eye hospital. I get to see so many kids with infected eyes…sometimes a 6 month old baby with a disfigured eye… or an illiterate lady who lost her sight because she should have seen the doc 6 months earlier…breaks my heart to see their face when the doc tells them that their eye sight is lost for good. There is this other time when I went to the skin doc and saw this kid who had burnt his chest by pouring hot milk on it. He was so young and his skin so delicate…how could he have borne the pain when I scream when a small oil drop splashes on me while cooking? Makes me wonder….. anything could have happened to me…I could have been born with a defect in my body, or i could have developed some disease anytime in my life, or could have been in an accident and lost a limb, or could have been careless about some medicines….or damn, anything could have happened to me anytime….but look at me…I’m hale and healthy, I’m whole and I live in a clean environment with parents who can afford to treat me, in case anything should go wrong. I don’t know if I’m lucky…but I sure do know that there is a God up there and that I am his special child! Even if I don’t get all the things I want in life, I should be happy for what I have now, I should be happy that I’m blessed with so much!